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  • Bleeding Like Mine

interviewed by "Among the Ruin"


The following interview was conducted by Christina De Melo of "Among the Ruins"

1. Was this CD really recorded in a basement and remastered in your apartment? That's incredible!

YES, about half of the CD was recorded in a friend's basement, and remixed on a four-tracker in our apartment. The other half was entirely recorded using the four-track, which created endless headaches trying to get CD quality sound out of the low-tech equipment. One song, "Garland", was actually mastered to DAT using a demo copy of the original, which was lost with all of my master tapes in a fire that destroyed my studio about a year prior to the CD release.

2. Curt and Holly are married is the working relationship made easier or more difficult by the personal relationship?

The personal relationship actually stems from the working relationship. I had known Holly in high school, and knew that she sang back then. After running into her again a few years later, I asked her if she was still singing. I mentioned the project I was working on for several months, and that I desperately needed a vocalist. She instantly turned my music into magic. Suddenly my music gained new life, and thus I thank her "...for making my soul come alive." Through the course of opening up my heart and my emotions through music, we became very good friends, and understood each other on a level never achieved before. Suddenly, this new love was developing which far surpassed the emotions of the lostlove my music was devoted too.

3. Are comfortable or uncomfortable with the tags "gothic-ethereal" or "dark-ambient" to describe the music?

Tags or labels aren't that important to me. I don't mind any of the terms which people use to describe the sound or emotion I create. What's more important is that people are at least talking about my music, my art. Honestly, I can't understand so many people's objections to being placed in a genre of music. Let's face it, every artist has a sound, vision, or inspiration taken from a previous work. This is true in music, painting, architecture....any facet of creativity is just an outgrowth of one's past judgments and experiences, developed with a personal flair. To be placed in an artistic catagory to me is simply describing similar visions or inspirations, for others to gather a sense of what the message is all about.

4. Many of the songs suggest strong imagery. Do the ideas for the songs come to you first as sounds or images?

The ideas come strictly as images, which are recorded in poetry, then transformed to music. My first love, and first form of expression is through poetry. Only when I rediscovered a passion for the piano did my thoughts turn to music.

5.The lyrics for the songs are so pained. Was it difficult to put that much personal pain to music for everyone to scrutinize?

I don't think about the opinions of others when I create poems. My words are honest emotions that I personally want to capture and record. I used my writing as a form of therapy, to recover from the loss of a love I thought would never end. Today, those thoughts still haunt me, but more so in that I never want to lose the love that I have now. I took for granted the love I lost, now I use my writing to remind myself of the feelings of true love, and to never lose that feeling or take it for granted. >The next BLM release is tentatively titled "10,000 Years...or Tomorrow", which represents to me this ideal of never taking love for granted, because it could be lost at any time, if you don't always treasure it.

6. Apparently Curt is "poly-instrumental". What instruments do you play? Are you self-taught or formally trained?

On the first CD, I play piano, sythesizers, bass guitar, samples and percussion. On the next release, I may be adding hammered dulcimer, trumpet, and even a small accordion piece. I had 1 year of piano lessons when I was 7 years old, and 2 years of trumpet when I was 11. Other than that, I have trained myself. I don't believe I am technically a very good musician... since I have very little experience or training. But what I do have is emotion, which I try to convey through use of sounds and dynamics, rather than technically brilliant lines. My music is honesty, from my heart, and I only gather musicians who are as affected by the creation of sound as I am.

7.Who are some of the musicians/writers/artists that inspire and influence you?

My favorite writer is Edgar Allen Poe, because he can convey any emotion he feels, and make the reader feel the same..... My favorite artists are the painter Hieronymus Bosch, and the architect Antonio Gaudi. Their works convey such obscure, almost horrific beauty, and make the viewer look far beyond the surface and think about what the artist was feeling, and how the viewer is moved by the work. In a way, I feel the same way about my music....creating beauty from horror (or sadness). Oh yeah, my favorite musicians....I nearly exclusively listen to Dead Can Dance, Elijah's Mantle, and In The Nursery. I would call Black Tape for a Blue Girl an influence, because I discovered the CD "A Chaos of Desire" just as I was rediscovering the piano, and this CD in a way gave me permission to create emotional music in the vein of '80s ballads (sounds silly, but honest....), with an atmosphere of sadness circling above.

8. Songs like "nothing seems the same" and "shattering a silver sky" use a bit more percussions and even a tribal/Middle Eastern rhythm. Is that a sound you would like to work more with in future?

The sound was not intentional, as I create all of my songs as improvisations. I guess these lyrics just called for this type of sound. I think that Holly's vocal style also translates into the MidEast sound, especially on these two tracks. Yes, there will be more percussive tracks on future releases, but I can't say what the "feel" will be like. I don't target a particular sound when I'm writing.....I just search for my emotion, or my vision, hit record, and play.....if something beautiful comes out of it, that's great. If not, I leave it, and return to start again when the same or another inspiration strikes me.

9. Everyone says Projekt Records showed pick up BLM. Has there been any interest from American record companies including though not exclusively Projekt?

Projekt, and Sam Rosenthal in particular, has a vision for his label. Though I had approached Projekt, I apparently did not fit in with Sam's vision. I am not hurt by this, because Projekt is an outlet of artistry for Sam. I would not want to blur the vision for someone elses art, just as I would not others to step in the way of mine. I am just thankful that Projekt has picked up my disc for distribution, which means BLM will be sold through Projekt, though not included on the label's roster. Through Projekt's "of These Reminders" compilation, I was approached by Palace of Worms. This label is a dream relationship, because I am allowed to create the works I want to create, and am not under any pressure to please a label or producer. I could not be happier with POW, and have no intention of ever taking BLM to another label.

10. What are the future projects for BLM?

BLM was recently released on a German compilation called "The Dark Ages", and will be released soon on a new US label compilation called "Precipice". By the end of the year, or early next year, BLM will be doing a song for a benefit compilation in Switzerland, to raise money for PaPau New Guinea. AND hopefully, by the spring of 1999, the next BLM CD will be released on POW.

11. What is the one feeling you want listeners of BLM to come away with?

For those who have lost love, have faith in that you're emotions are notunique, and that love may turn up when you least expect it (it may even be right under your nose). And for those in ideal love, never take it for granted......